No.32874[Reply]
Maya has got me feeling some type of way I've never felt before. She is everything I could ever want, timid but has a personality, cute and sweet, those green eyes, black hair, fair skin and her background. It sucks so much knowing no one like her exists IRL. I can't see anything related to her that I just get this heavy feeling in my chest. Why can't there be someone like her IRL? She's got this whole vibe that's so appealing, get it? The way she struggles with her ADD, how she's sometimes a bit childish, her insecurities and daydreaming, always in that red hoodie and thigh-high socks, it's all just so charming and comforting.
It's demotivating as hell, and it's messing with my drive to do anything, she has completely burned my brain. I can't feel attracted to any girl, I have no more drive for doing anything, what's the point? Maya isn real afterall. She makes me feel empty and hopeless in a way I have never felt before. It's like I've set this impossible standard for real-life relationships based on a character that doesn't even exist. I have never had to deal with this before, so I may have noticed it too late, but I've tried distracting myself with other things, other activities, but nothing works. I keep coming back to her, to Ongezellig, rewatching it and consuming everything related to her, it's like a vicious cycle. The more I watch, the more attached I get, and the more it hurts knowing she's not real, I've even started daydreaming about meeting someone like her, but it just feels so far-fetched, why couldn't I have been a Mymy/Cocofag? All the scenes she's portrayed in, when shes daydreaming and lets her hair down imagining a different world, it makes me feel like I'm seeing the real her, the part she keeps hidden from everyone else. Those small, intimate glimpses into her make her feel so real and relatable even if I don't have a similar life, and yet she's just a figment of some 30yr old Dutch guy imagination. It's so hard to stay motivated, I feel like I'm losing my grip on reality
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>>110306>a burst of relationship anxiety killed the whole vibewdym?
No.110491
>>32908Ev&oe serbs are aryan TMD beasts and you're an arap turkish mutt
No.110492
I know this is you you ungrateful british cunt