I have been in quite possibly the shittiest state of my life that I have ever been in. And it all started with fucking Ongezellig, more specifically, Maya. Please let me explain:
I found Ongezellig on the Sharty a while back, and decided to watch it. I really liked how it was dark but also funny at the same time. I knew that Maya was kinda fucked up in the head, considering she's extremely isolated and probably schizo, but the show was comedic enough that I didn't really care.
That was until I discovered Maya's Diary.
Maya's Diary was the trigger for my spiraling mental state. It brought me back to a time where I was essentially in the same spot as her, being extremely isolated, doing anything I could do get out of being around other people, because I thought they all hated me. I had an incredibly shitty Middle School experience (I mean we all do), but Middle School completely fucking ruined me, dude. For most of High School, I was mortified to talk to new people, because I was essentially scared of people. The shit these fags did to me because they could, made me feel completely worthless.
After High School I did get better, with most of the memories of Middle School fading away as time went on.
But reading Maya's Diary was like something reach through the screen and shoved all of those memories back into my skull, and I've been stuck in my own head saying to me:
>You're so stupid for letting a piece of fiction which isn't even FUCKING CANON for making you depressed>You're so stupid for hanging onto things that happened when you were a kid>You're so stupid that you want to kill yourself over some textPost too long. Click here to view the full text.