No.21755
To fix your life you first need a job. This will secure an income and a future for you. But also this will improve your mental health as you will no longer see yourself as completely useless. It will also expand your social sphere and make you feel as if you are actually contributing to and participating in society.
>as i feel as if i wouldnt enjoy any of them
Currently this doesn't matter at all. You just need to do SOMETHING. Doesn't really matter what it is. School has brainwashed us to think that you need to get the power to do the thing, but often you need to do the thing to get the power. Not everything has to be fulfilling or enjoyable. In fact about 80% of my waking life is not enjoyable, but I still do it anyways because I'm a duty driven man. That's how heroism is born.
In regards to mental health the other two essentials are social life and religion. You need to have a good relationship with your family and peers. So work on fixing that. Living just for living's sake eventually runs into problems as life often sucks. Therefore you need some other transcendent justification to keep fighting. If you do not find any of the claims of any religion to be convincing then you just need study philosophy in general. After that you should construct/find a worldview which justifies living and fighting in some way. For atheists the common justification is mankind's collective ascension through understanding and technological progress. Though religion is still superior to atheism in both utility and veracity.
No.21759
Knowledge of the Clarke's third law has made me unable of believing in any religion, even if I saw miracles happening with my own eyes.