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122 replies omitted.zoot's idea of owning a website is exactly like a child's idea of owning a pet
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keep in mind this isnt like the zarty, where i was a 19 y/o with a lot of free time and almost no other responsibilities. Perhaps it will be a good idea to put enough money to autopay for the next month (in case i aint available). RN i am in a dynamic situation and i hope i will settle things out.
This board, if it wasnt clear enough before, is for ALL KINDS OF TOPICS, not just sharty related.
Talk about anything you wish, as long as its in the boundaries of da rules.
I wanna preface this by saying im here because this is too embarrassing to post on a more identifiable place and the sharty is no use, also im NOT a troon and NEVER will be one or anything close to it and I know for a fact im not gay.
Im a man but I don't really understand how to be one entirely, I grew up without a father figure and I was mentally ill in my tween/teen years and suicidal. I've always been very sensitive cuz of autism and im very physically weak my whole life, I was really insecure about this in high school and I was already depressed so I found myself latching onto media that had "Soft" male characters like deltarune and sanrio stuff and a variety of cute themed furry webcomics because I associated masculine men with ugly and mean things, and saw myself in characters like ralsei or the suicidal cat in this picture
I didn't want to fuck them I want that to be clear, the fantasy was being them and then maybe dating one of the girl characters from the comics/games I was fantasizing about. part of my suicidal tendencies was the fantasy of escaping the real world and then going to a afterlife where I basically become one of those characters,
its so bad it warped my perception of self where my inner monologue and self perception I always imagine a squeaky voiced sort of chibi/fursona version of myself whenever I think or picture myself doing something or during my cry sessions.
Im a adult now and I know this stuff is all bad and unhealthy especially since I have seen how troons are and have shifted into a more conservative mindset but no matter what I do I can't get out of this headspace
im so jealous of normal guys who grow up and do manly stuff and have girlfriends without ever having these weird fantasies because I genuinely don't know what to do, I know I need to be normal but my brain wants me to -ACK and get away from reality, wtf do I do to undo this, I feel like I got fucked up rng and should just -ack to try again at life as a normal guy.
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The Eastern Orthodox Church is the only genuine source of help escaping that headspace I've found. I was depressed all throughout my teenage years and right into young adulthood. I've only really started to change recently. God has guided me towards treating my executive dysfunction (another big contributor to my depression) and towards a healthier lifestyle and frame of mind. A lot of that has been through the "usual" stuff: exercise, constructive hobbies, and so on. But more than anything, the Church taught me to look at the world differently than I once did. I'm not afraid of aging or dying as I once was. I feel a lot less insecure about who I am. Old wounds don't sting as much. Above all, I don't want to -ACK anymore, since I have newer, healthier ways to deal with the pain.
I didn't expect this to be multiple posts long. I don't want to present you with any longer a wall of text, so in summary, I guess the Orthodox Church has both given me the push I needed to start working through all this stuff and the tools to do so.
Idk what to say to this because I have no intentions of converting, no offense intended.
I understand. Sorry, I didn't mean to come off as a door to door evangelist. I was just trying to answer your question and explain how I started to work through my stuff.
tsmt we should have a big bright glowing red button for the retarded
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The other addition is worse, it's a continuation of based and christ pilled related to cuck fetishism, used to mock too overly zealous christians and such other groups. Overall I don't think either meme is funny or has any scope other than being edgy and subverting expectations. One of the reason soy culture was good is because almost every piece had a chuddy meaning to it, like squirreljaks being a stand in for the white man against the invader. This does point at where soy culture is directed, which is to become irony poisoned, invert its original chuddy values in the name of baiting and eventually die 40 replies omitted.
are you the wojak in this scenario? I don't see any arrow either is it just a reaction image?
it's the reaction image used by somephono in my class
Guys im not a glownigger I can prove it. I hate Isr, ghgghghghghghghg, I can't say it, I hate isr.
I want to 'ape autistic niggers 1 replies omitted.
Like idk why is calling her 🇮🇱 me I’m calling her 🇬🇧 or idk
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