/zellig/ - Ongezellig

You will never be a real mass shooter. You have no motive, you have no manifesto, you have no combat skills. You are a homosexual man twisted by the Internet and discord groups into a crude mockery of Tarrant’s perfection.

All the “validation” you get is two-faced and half-hearted. Behind your back people mock you. Your parents are disgusted and ashamed of you, your “friends” laugh at your botched suicide behind closed doors.

Chuds are utterly repulsed by you. Thousands of hours of shitposting have allowed chuds to sniff out failed normies with incredible efficiency. Even failtrolls who “blend in” look uncanny and unnatural to a chud. Your interests are a dead giveaway. And even if you manage to spawn a couple of copycats, they'll end up the same way you did the second their shitty telegram bought guns jam.

You will never be white. You wrench out a fake smile every single morning and tell yourself it’s going to be ok, but deep inside you feel the depression creeping up like a weed, ready to crush you under the unbearable weight.

Eventually it’ll be too much to bear - you’ll buy a gun, write some bullshit on a google doc, go to your nearest police station, and commit suicide by cop. Your parents will find you, heartbroken but relieved that they no longer have to live with the unbearable shame and disappointment. They’ll bury you with an unmarked headstone, as to avoid every passerby for the rest of eternity spitting on your grave. Your body will decay and go back to the dust, and all that will remain of your legacy is a skeleton that is unmistakably brown.

This is your fate. This is what you chose. There is no turning back