No.114971
I have been in quite possibly the shittiest state of my life that I have ever been in. And it all started with fucking Ongezellig, more specifically, Maya. Please let me explain:
I found Ongezellig on the Sharty a while back, and decided to watch it. I really liked how it was dark but also funny at the same time. I knew that Maya was kinda fucked up in the head, considering she's extremely isolated and probably schizo, but the show was comedic enough that I didn't really care.
That was until I discovered Maya's Diary.
Maya's Diary was the trigger for my spiraling mental state. It brought me back to a time where I was essentially in the same spot as her, being extremely isolated, doing anything I could do get out of being around other people, because I thought they all hated me. I had an incredibly shitty Middle School experience (I mean we all do), but Middle School completely fucking ruined me, dude. For most of High School, I was mortified to talk to new people, because I was essentially scared of people. The shit these fags did to me because they could, made me feel completely worthless.
After High School I did get better, with most of the memories of Middle School fading away as time went on.
But reading Maya's Diary was like something reach through the screen and shoved all of those memories back into my skull, and I've been stuck in my own head saying to me:
>You're so stupid for letting a piece of fiction which isn't even FUCKING CANON for making you depressed
>You're so stupid for hanging onto things that happened when you were a kid
>You're so stupid that you want to kill yourself over some text
>People won't think your serious for being depressed because of Ongezellig
>What would your parents think if you were upset of this?
>What would your parents think if you killed yourself over this?
I genuinely don't know what to do, I'm getting more and more worried that I'm actually going to kill myself. If you can please please please convince me not to it would mean fucking everything to me.
No.114972
didnt you post this already?
No.114973
You shouldn’t kill yourself Zaryan, especially not if it’s because of bad memories. Idk if you care about your family, but your suicide would devastate them and honestly ruin their lives in a ton of ways. It doesn’t seem like a piece of fiction is making you depressed, but is just reminding you of what is actually depressing you. I know therapy is a meme but if you think it even has a chance of helping you it’s worth a try. If you don’t like your life right now you can change it. Try figuring out what you genuinely enjoy, both to be grateful for what you have and to focus on what you want. You’re here for a reason, it’s just that finding it is hardly ever easy.
Life is a gift and throwing it away it is a sin, read the Bible and open your heart to God.
Basically anything could happen, and suicide means you’ll never get to find out what will.
Took it too seriously award.
No.114976
>>114971When did you discover the show? If after the discontinuation, then kys immediately (I'm kidding)
No.114978
nigga no one will be happy if you kill yourself, not even yourself
No.114982
>>114981geg christcucks really say this
No.114983
>>114981are they wrong doebeit? you mock things until you kys from despair, what a lovely life innit
No.114986
>>114983I don't need a mentally ill old greek wog to know my life's purpose and what's right. The Bible must teach the Christian, not the man's loony mind.
No.114988
>>114971nu pasta o algo (I’ve seen this before)
No.114989
>I'm getting more and more worried that I'm actually going to kill myself.
why would you be worried if you're going to kill yourself? if you don't want to kill yourself, you wouldn't worry about it the same way you don't worry about shoving thorns into your urethra. if you do want to kill yourself, you wouldn't worry about it because it's something you want to do.
No.114995
>>114971Don't kill your Zaryan. find What makes you happy, for me it's Languages, history, and math. remember, if you don't like something change your mind set, I know it's easier said than done, but it's true. the past is the past, and the future is new, and has not happened, but it's all what you do right now that matters, and I want you to see your happiest days.
No.115010
>>114996I love Maya, I would love to take her on a date.
No.115012
Old 'pasta
No.115015
>>115013See chud diversity won because now there's a chance of actually finding a mutt^4 girlfriend in your own (previously) white country
No.115018
>>115015well, it's not about Maya's genes, it's how she acts (and she is already beautiful, even&doe she's a mutt) which is why I love Maya as a character. and also why I'm trying to find a Maya of my own, so I can spend my love to her.
No.115020
>>115019Maya is not real, and her parents are her parents, so they're fine, cause Ravi is white, and sadly Coco Parents died. but it doesn't mean we can't find people similar to them. which is why I'm trying to find a Maya of my very own.
No.115034
>>115020If the writingfag poops once more again, Maya dies. Mark my words.
No.115036
>>115034not a high bar geg
No.115099
>>114971Hi saar, you seem like you are young so I want you to know that if you dont kill yourself, your future self will probably be infinitely grateful and relieved that you decided not to. It will still be hard to THOUGH I'm sure but i advise you to not give in.
No.115100
>>115099On the other hand, if you do, your future self will certainly not regret doing that because there will be no your future self to speak of.