Ongezellig

Guys i dont even know what to say about this but i beleive i actually had a case of sun down sydrome or a night terror last night. I couldn't fucking sleep at all i was just lying there scared for no reason and for some reason, ongezellig kept popping into my head, im not sure what it was about it, but for some reason everytime I thought of ongezellig i would get really fucking angry. Like i lost complete control of myself and i was just having a angry feral panic attack or something. I got zero sleep. Can anyone relate