No.7258
Hey Zaryans, My feeling got fucked over today and I have no one to express it to anymore, I thought I have but they turned out to be cold and disregarding, every single one of them are. I might sound stupid but I feel like this place is much more welcoming than whatever I have right now.
I care so much for people, I'd put a lot of effort into making people feel happy and loved, only to be left behind and treated as unwanted. One moment I was special, and then something and then I became less and less significant. No matter how hard I tried, it just didn't matter to them, and then I became nothing to them. I felt awful about it and the more I express about my feelings to others the more they became fed up with it.
They then treated like nothing ever happened, like I had never existed.
Even though I had done so much for them, I still was left behind in despair. Sometimes when I feel sad, all I ever wanted was a listening ear and support but all I received are just criticism and directions, I might not be in the right but I also don't want to be judged.
I never thought I'd ever relate to Maya for having imaginary friends. It's hard to be in reality when my friends treated me like nothing, so I made up a supportive friend in my mind to comfort me even though it's not real, at the least it was kind of a great coping method.
I really love this place, even though it might seem like a hell hole for normies but I am sure that Zaryans are still kind souls at the end of the day.
If you wanna talk about anything, I'm here for you Zaryans.
No.7260
>>7259
That place sucks.
No.7262
>>7261
fuck off, I'm home.
No.7266
>>7258Been In similar situation, been part of pretty nice pack of friends, drank alot of vodka together, after some time slowly realized that Im being quietly pushed away, felt unwanted, stopped even asking them if they want to hangout anymore as I understood that we just didn't have much in common other than alcohol and school. After that experiance i only searched for people with whom I had something in common with, after some time found one really nice fella and realized that I'm much happier hanging out with just that one dude rather than with whole crowd of normies
No.7267
>>7266happy that it turned out great for you Zaryan.
>>7265already infesting.
No.7269
>>7267It will turn good for you too, just don't get too depressed in the meantime as depression only wastes time and mental strenght needed to fix your situation
No.7273
fakecel website shut it down zoot
No.7276
samefag cord thread, zoot please stop these cord gayops somehow
No.7281
>>7276samefagnigger got ACKed. Zoot saved us
No.7282
>>7258Zaryan, I hope you'll find some actual friends, and a word of advice: don't try to overdo it on putting that much effort onto other people. They'll often take it for granted and the worst of them will keep you on a leash to get more. Truth is, this hidden place on the internet harbors people who actually relate to you, doesn't matter whatever cope outsiders say. For example, I got "le imaginary friend" too, something from when I was younger, and it never went away. He pops up from time to time, not as much though.
No.7283
Stop caring about people in themselves, start caring about topics you are interested in, and then find people who care about the same topics.
No.7284
>>7282Thank you, for now every Zaryans are my friends. I wish I had schizo so that I can see mine instead of imagining it. I have to fucking sleep now as I have appointment with my psychiatrist within less than 5 hours. I hope they don't lock me up in a rubber room.
No.7287
>>7258>>7271>>7284read this then talk about how you feel. it helped me a lot whenever i was feeling basically the same as you and it should only take like 2 hours to read. theres audiobooks on youtube of it but i would recommend to just read it.
https://giove.isti.cnr.it/demo/eread/Libri/calm/Metamorphosis.pdf No.7289
>>7283Unless he has very normal interests its going to make him alone and terminally online
No.7291
>>7289The other choice is to engage with the normalcattle, which will single him out anyways
No.7293
>>7258I feel ya man. I was a normalGOD like you, still am but more chuddy now. I'd always been my best in school, so my parents and those around me see me as a role model. As I grew up that gifted child mentality started wearing off. Even being an extrovert didn't help me when the plandemic happened. More and more people started keeping to themselves, and I had a hard time being with my friends, who moved on and got busy in life. I felt like I was now alone in this world. My parents ask me what changed from me, it's just that I grew up, and no one was willing to help me out during my important youth years. I feel like I'm emotionally stunted and so much I missed in my life.
No.7294
>>7289If he doesn't share interests with people around him, he will stand out anyway
No.7295
>>7292I don't think this man is in his thirties
No.7296
>>7276People are tools, you're using people for your goals or you're being used.
No.7297
>>7296Most are both though
No.7302
Having spent the majority of my formative years without friends I can tell you this much.
Loneliness can be both torturing and gratifying, I look at the oversocialized young people out there and I thank God that I am not like them, I see their eyes empty of innocence, they are entirely focused on social trends and superficial junk, as if they unable to think beyond the very ground that they're stepping on.
I on the other hand suffer greatly because I am quite the opposite, I have a hard time staying grounded in the moment.
Believe in God, Repent and Pray for Salvation because this world isn't the end of existence, there is something beyond, where you will be full, this life is a test and you should treat it like that, let God comfort you in your times of anguish, I will Pray for you.
Psalm 68:5-6 ~ Father of the fatherless and protector of widows is God in his holy habitation. God settles the solitary in a home; he leads out the prisoners to prosperity, but the rebellious dwell in a parched land.
Isaiah 41:10 ~ Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Deuteronomy 31:6: "The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you"
I've also tried a lot to make people feel loved just to be trashed and forgotten, remember this, our congratulations await us in Heaven with God, not with the people we've helped.
I've been lonely all my life, never had anyone to trust and tell my problems, spent too many years wasting time chatting with strangers or using AI to fix my loneliness, the only thing left for me is to face the truth.
I am an outcast and I will never fit in with the norm, I dream of a better life that is beyond this valley of tears, I hate sin and I will never conform to the desires of the flesh.
I advice you to believe in God, Repent and Pray for Salvation because this world isn't the end of existence, there is something beyond, where you will be fulfilled, this life is a test and you should treat it like that, let God comfort you in your times of anguish.
Psalm 68:5-6 ~ Father of the fatherless and protector of widows is God in his holy habitation. God settles the solitary in a home; he leads out the prisoners to prosperity, but the rebellious dwell in a parched land.
Isaiah 41:10 ~ Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Deuteronomy 31:6: "The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you"
I've also tried a lot to make people feel loved just to be trashed and forgotten, remember this, our congratulations await us in Heaven with God, not with the people we've helped, I will pray for you, don't suffer.
No.7303
>>7302I accidentaly pasted the full rambling paragraph, my apologies, I always re-write the thing a couple of times to make sure my words are expressed correctly and with the correct tone, anyways, hope it helps you.
No.7304
>>7258I have "friends" who are like that. They have no concern for my feelings or thoughts, I'm just someone they keep around to make fun of. I've got the choice to leave, but I don't want to be seen as a weird loner. I guess I'd rather be a joke to have around than alone. I told them one time if they weren't going to respect me, then I was leaving, and they just laughed. I can tell in their body language and facial movements, that they aren't comfortable around me, and can't be genuine, only fake. What would Wrangel think?
No.7307
>>7304You're better off alone, trust me, you'll look back on your present self and think "why didn't I leave sooner".
If you want a friend, God is there for you no matter what, he will not forsake you, he loves you and sacrificed his own life to save your soul.
Repent brother, I will pray for you too.
John 15:12-15 "This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends if you do what I command you. No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you."
Proverbs 13:20 "Whoever walks with the wise becomes wise, but the companion of fools will suffer harm."
Proverbs 12:26 "One who is righteous is a guide to his neighbor, but the way of the wicked leads them astray."
No.7311
>>7287I'm reading it and currently at page 13, so far the book is saddening but probably because I am not at the heartwarming part yet.
>>7302>>7306>>7307not into religions but I do get the gesture. Thank you for your efforts in spreading your ways of kindness.
No.7312
>>7311Not telling you to convert, but if you ever wanted to feel a little better, read the book of Psalms in the bible, it's got lots of sayings to make you a bit better, even if you aren't a Christian. I pray you get better soon man!
Psalm 23:4 "Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me."