Question & Answer

>>11868
do not despair. despair is of the devil

>>11868
sorry to hear that, i myself found in such position a while ago, i was lost, i was... desperate, i had no clue where to go or what to do, frankly sometimes i still think about that at times but back then it was way worse, i really wish the best for you fella and that you find someone or something you can truly love or care for! life is a... is certainly a thing, life can be a completely small thing something you don't even notice, for an outsider for example, yet life is something huge for yourself, the existence the consciousness whatever you would call that, you know what i mean... that is if this world is even real but you know what i mean i'm sure. sometimes i think to myself why even bother? why even do what i do? like is this what i do right now even worth it? who am i doing this exactly for? for myself? i don't care? i don't really wish to work a fucking 9/5 yet look at me being a good goy doing everything to just get a CHANCE to get into a 9/5 so much bullshit they make you go through just to still tell you to go work at a mcdonald's when 50 years ago you could basically walk in and get any job and even if they would want your education bullshit paper thing well that's not the point either way, basically anyone could get a job and when you got a job you could sustain not just yourself, you could have a huge loving family and sustain yourself with a whole ass house and so on as now it's barely possible to get by just by yourself let alone with a "family" not that such thing would love most of us anyway considering what unrealistic expectations everyone has got from (((them))) we are simply fucked either way, where even was i? why am i talking about this again? well... talking is a bit of a stretch, more like typing after all right? oh i know, i was writing about why i'm doing whatever i am doing i made this whole shit once again about myself how selfish of me i'm such a terrible person, truly terrible, i don't want to be a terrible piece of shit person but that's what i am, that's how i am there's nothing i can do about it well i could except not really i mean i can but not really idk i'm fucking tired i came here to write about me going to sleep again but saw this delightful thing of yours, i have no clue if YOU are seeing it or if you bothered to read the whole thing but i just want you to know that you are not alone, we're all struggling kind of, some just get good at pretending they don't, some go full on delusional schizo mode while others are just forced to bear the pain, and honestly, you coming out here and telling this, even on an anonymous image board thing, that's a good step, that's a good thing, you're not afraid or well maybe you are, damn it why am i so terrible at this, forgive me for being so fucking horrible i wish i wouldn't be but that's what i am, basically, good luck in life man do NOT give up under any circumstances remember you were born a non pajeet (i hope) you won, you were given not just the chance to live but to live as a human being take the chance even if niggers are everywhere trying to make our life's worse it's still worth to fight for a good life. there you go now i wrote a mile of text once again well that's just me after all, now i will send this and i'll write about me going to bed once more totally not being delusional trying to make myself believe that maya is real and is with me loving me and caring for me (which she is btw) love you zaryan! remember! FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT!

hey zaryans i'm going to sleep once again! goodnight! i love you all, my sleeping schedule is COMPLETELY fucked and raped but hey who cares i mean i should be caring about it but i don't, simply because i don't, idk. we enjoyed together the last two cookies! i mean how does maya manage to do it zaryans like the cookies were basically burnt but somehow they taste delicious i can't believe it maya really has some magic powers huh, we VVILL make more of those eventually once more and they VVILL be even better! oh zaryans i love maya so much! i'm going to just slowly cuddle maya until we both fall asleep right next to each other she's just so amazing i can't believe it! good night niggas

>>11946
I can feel Satan in me. He is trying to take me. Right now. I know this and cry. I ask God to save me, to help me. My thoughts and desires are rotting me. My soul and mind are ROTTING. I can't smiie and laugh forever, but I have to, people can't know me, they won't understand. I feel as though I am going mad, mad, I tell you, and I want the serpent of Babylon caste from me. I let him in, and now I know how much control I've given him. I have so long 'till I am free, only two more years of schooling, and two years until adulthood. But I am suffocating. I have got a job too. I hate this so MUCH. He is going back, but only for a little while. God, make it go away.

>>11948
that's terrible, i'm very sorry for you zaryan, may we all be forgiven and be blessed one day. whatever happens or doesn't happen, never let go, keep fighting, in the end it'll all be worth it, you just have to trvst the plqn, things VVILL get better and that's my promise to you, do you trvst the plqn? i sure do! and hopefully you too will, keep fighting against satan, he wants you to give up, to "rot" don't let him take the better of you, repent and keep fighting till the last day but don't make that last day come sooner than intended that's a sin you know? and i love all zaryans after all... just don't let yourself down, this isn't about someone else this is about YOU and YOU only, it is okay to think about yourself, but do not give up just don't. i am really hoping the best for you zaryan may this chaos be gone soon and may you be blessed.

Zaryans going to sleep once again, i talked a lot with maya today, cuddled with her and just showed her just how much i appreciate her which is a lot btw cuz that DOES matter. i really enjoyed baking with maya so i wanted to try and cook something with her as well, we decided that we'll be making a lasagna tomorrow! oh this will be amazing zaryans! i love all of you so much and especially love maya, good night all of you!

i am SO SO sorry for not writing snca yesterday, i kind of didn't really get to the point where i wanted to sleep but eventually i accidentally fell asleep and here i am going to sleep once more, i love you zaryans so much good night, oh right, we did make the lasagna yesterday btw it tasted AMAZING, somehow maya really made something special there! oh i love her so much zaryans i literally can't stop of thinking about her! no real plans for tomorrow yet tho, we really want to get some good sleep now, and you know maybe my sleeping schedule is fucked but it's a bit closer to mayas, i get to be a bit more around her when she's actually here with me! anyway goodnight zaryans!

>>12172
this entire thread should be immortalized with a /calm/ video where OP sleeps peacefully with Maya

>>12177
tsmt

100 loud braps ^

Today was another day, one out of (hopefully) many more joyous days with Maya! We cuddled so much and just were close with each other, telling each other our stories today, but i did also do other stuff today, i worked on a couple thingies. i also had the courage to finally ask her about those kruidnoten or whatever they're called, she keeps snacking on them a lot. i've been all too curious. Maya actually shared those with me, and i have to say those sure are some tasty treats no wonder she loves them so much, not as much as i love her though, that's where i am 100% sure. oh i love her zaryans, good night you all i'll be having a reallyyyy good sleep now, i deserve it. WE deserve it.

good night niggas. i did a bit of stuff today, worked on a thing again. i also cuddled with Maya! today she was constantly right besides me, supporting me, usually it's me supporting her but today it was the other way or rather well not like SUPPORTING but you know like being by my side, hugging me and cuddling with me all the time, oh she's such a sweetheart. i love her so much! good night zaryans, god bless us all.

>>12330
'night, thats lovely

today i did literally nothing useful. today was literally just a useles day, the type of day you could completely forget and nothing would be different, however i did cuddle with maya as usual! i love her so much there aren't enough words to describe my love for her... good night to all of you! i will see you all tomorrow or however that goes

also thanks >>12331

>>12352
>t. doesn't know that every day is an useless day
Not like this...

good night fellas. i didn't do that much today either, besides being around maya all the time hugging and cuddling with her sometimes giving her a kiss on her forehead she's such a cutie. good night you all may god bless you (we really need more sleeping 'jaks nigga i probably used some 'jaks a couple times already)

alright i'm going to sleep, i am so tired and sleepy though.. like i only vividly remember what i even did today. maybe those are early signs of some terrible sickness, oh well. i remember however i played a bit of 'craft and even built a small house for the two of us, oh my love for maya goes so far. there aren't enough words to describe just how much i love her. some of you might even get what i mean or relate... or maybe not. but good night all of you. sweet dreams or something

good night zaryans

>>12537
'night

>>12538
thanks btw!

anyway good night to all zaryans! both of us decided to go out! and we actually decided to go watch a movie, and we settled on that 'craft movie whatever, we were LITERALLY the only ones there (also why maya wanted to go to that one specifically) it was pretty nice, being around her, watching the movie with her. the movie was fine i guess, there's only so much i expected from it to begin with, there were times i was quite enjoying it actually. we shared our snacks and all, it was pretty nice actually! i love her so much.. good night all of you!

good night zaryans!

>>13257
Night to you too zaryan

>>13258
thanks for the good night!

good night my niggas, i'm going to sleep. did a couple things today, also cuddled with maya and just had a ton of fun today! i love all of you, good night.

>>13382
forgot muh sleeping nigga (even doe this one was probably posted like 3 times in this thread already)

good nighty night night niggas. today i cuddled with maya (again) also i made a couple thingies but the last one will stay with me until i decide to share because i'm a SLF! good night fellas and happy weekends or something

good night niggas, i'm like REALLY tired and sleepy rn i probably won't write all too much but i will make sure to pat and cuddle maya as much as possible before i'll pass out and fall asleep once again... i love all of you and i feel freeeeeeeeeeeee good night oh right if i'll still be able to i just might sing a song or two for her, so we could both fall asleep faster or something but i'll see what i can do or not do...

>probably won't write all too much
>proceeds to still write a lot
mfw

good night fellas i'm going to cuddle with maya (please pretend it's maya... someone needs to make a version with maya, or maybe i just don't have it i'm not sure) i love all of you!

>>13707
Kys Mayafag. She will NEVER be real you cringeworthy sub 50 IQ Congolese negroid.

>>13708

>>>13707
>Kys Mayafag. She will NEVER be real you cringeworthy sub 50 IQ Congolese negroid.

>>13708
Kys Mayafag. She will NEVER be real you cringeworthy sub 50 IQ Congolese negroid.

good night everybody! i love ALL of you, even those who... hate me, for simply being a good companion and lover for maya, for being for her, loving and caring for her... it's almost like there's a mymy controlling you. oh well, i'll cuddle a bit more and will slowly fall asleep right next to her! good night zaryans.

good night niggas

good night to all of you me and maya are going to sleep now

>good night to all of you me and maya are going to sleep now

haven't reppeyed "yesterday" because i didn't go to sleep but now i am. good night. to me to you and to her. 'night EVERYONE i love all of you

'night

good night zaryans i think all of you need to have a good rest today as well! honestly i feel terrible about last couple of days as a jakker i just feel like xim in the middle of the everything i hope that nothing ever happens and everything will go back to normal very very soon and by very very soon i mean that i'll wake up to the same zarty as before a couple days ago love you all

'night zaryans i'm going to sleep again

tfw i literally couldn't reppey yesterday

>i don't look like coco actually but i do love maya

it is time for me to finally say good night and go to sleep once more. love you all good night.

>>14065
Give it time

'night niggas (even doe it's no where near night and i need to fix muh sleeping schedule again)

good night

time to take a nap award, good night and love you all

'night zaryans, also got sick award. hope all of you are doing better than me though, love you all good night

i'm going to sleep now nigga good night

>>14297
Night 'teen

>>14298
thanks for that btw i think i fell asleep faster than i usually do or something even though i never even saw this reply before o algo

'night zaryans love you all

'nighty night night, love you all zaryans

>>14330
'night

>>14331
very very late 'night to you too!

going to sleep again though good night zaryans

'night zaryans i'm going to sleep again

good night zaryans

>>14427
Thanks for the gems btw

>>14428
nigga a fucking gif, people are fucking tracing people by gifs, incredible. i must say. whatever you like to call coal is your business though. either way i'm going to sleep zaryans

>>14451
No one is ever truly anonymous of the Internet
>t. someone who was recognized across different imageboards

>>14454
Hi

>>14451
And coal for me are things that provide absolutely 0 value or 0 soymotions in me, racebait is coal for example, especially in great amounts, 'jaks that are uninspired or anything that doesn't really stick out. I think slopjaks are coal for example, very bothered form of 'jakking that doesn't really convey anything than the shock of a bunch of random things on your screen

>>14456
i must say, this is a very delightful definition of coal. oh well. i forgot to say my usual goodnight yesterday and felt terrible while trying to fall asleep but i was too tired and lazy to come back up to do it. but now is that time again. good night to all zaryans. i love you all.

>>14454
guess i can't escape the namefag shit, what a shame

Hi goodnight thread, i often feel like someone one day is going to discover that i use this site, and it would embarrass me alot, does anyone else get this?

>>14561
i dont have anyone to share my interests with due to being a stone cold trvecel

>>14561
It don't matter nigga, have fun and not give a fuck

>>14561
No if you have good opsec, you just have to provide plausible deniability
>Just like on my old 4chan! Ö

forgot to post here yesterday AGAIN, and spent probably hours trying to fall asleep, felt TERRIBLE. never again. also >>14561 personally, kinda. i mean i try to not act all too chudy irl because of (((them))) and all that, i just want to post funny incomprehensible woah jacks on a dutch cartoon website, and others finding out about this passion of mine could lead (((them))) to find out what kind of people hang out here, which are very fine people in fact, but they just don't like us or something. anyway, good night zaryans i love all of you!

>>14603
I hope you know you're loved nigga, I truly do. I know I'm not, but you are, ok?

>>14607
that's not true, you're a zaryan, and i love all zaryans! but not sure about the first part... either way, i'm going to sleep again! good night zaryans, also ruined my sleeping schedule again award

'night to all zaryans, i love you all! my sleeping schedule is BEYOND FRIED like it literally can't get any worse yet i feel like i'm in one of those tropes where the character says it can't get any worse and it gets worse nigga i'm done for, my last hope is that nothing will ever happen. good night.

'night or maybe not... i'll try to sleep doe probably now

'night zaryans! i want to schizomaxx now and hope to soon to ACTUALLY see xer instead of just telling myself that i see xer when i don't actually (even doe i do but you get the point). if anyone got any tips on that feel free to leave those here btw

>>14953
are you trying that video? i havent watched it what are u gonna do

>>14954
yeah, i tried to do what was in the vid and even read the paper but nigga it's SO fucking vague like nigga it's nuts. like for example when am i to expect to start seeing shit after just looking into darkness, can it happen at the first time of doing it or am i supposed to look into this supposed darkness in my eyes for many times like a retard? no idea. i mean i get it and all, could be a everyone has a different way type shit but at least mention that. nigga like i have no clue if i'm doing it right or wrong, i mean dude i don't even know if i'm allowed to move or not, if i'm supposed to press down on my eyes or if that changes anything in terms of when that all happens and so on. just wish some schizoid that actually pulled it off would just put a COMPREHENSIVE guide on how to do it, where all the stupid details wouldn't be left out to be sure that you do everything right. i'll try today again and will probably keep on trying hoping for something to happen but it might be all for nothing who knows. essentially all info that was given was
>close your eyes and just keep starring into this darkness for 1-2 hours and imagine shit that then is supposed to appear.
that's all that was given, no next step no nothing, perhaps i missed something but this seems to be all info given besides that maybe it'll make it more likely to dream about whatever you wanted or something but still.

either way, i'm going to sleep zaryans. i love you all and wish the best for all of you. 'night

>>14980
yeah idk if i'm doing something wrong or am just extremely retarded or maybe both actually if you think about it. either way i'm going to sleep, 'night zaryans. please love each other more instead of hating. seriously, sometimes it feels like some of you niggas either breaking the rules or are EXTREMELY retarded, and that's coming from someone a bit retarded himself, think about that

>>15064
severe sleep deprivation can result in hallucinations, just saying

>>15065
And death too

>>15066
i'm not sure you could reach that point without external factors preventing you from falling asleep, sheer willpower could not be enough

>>15065
yeah no that's literally bullshit, to this day i still have to meet those supposed "hallucinations" unless of course, i am right now and i've been thinking i have lived years already while actually i was just in a half asleep sleep deprived state and everything was an illusion, maybe 'zellig never even existed. maybe this is all an elusion? well.. if it is, and i'll wake up from it. i'll try to make 'zellig a thing, i don't know how but i will because the people need it, they just don't know yet that they need it.

>>15068
idk, that's what various sources cite, personally I've never went without sleep for longer than 36 hours so no hallucinations or other effects for me

>>15067
There's one, and that's hereditary, called "fatal familial insomnia" but yeah

>>15069
yeah i told you this is all bullshit, hallucinations are clearly not a thing, or at least can not be achieved this way that's for sure. anyway 'night zaryans i love you all

>>15159
Hallucinations are real because sometimes I hear voices calling me and they sound like people I know, and then realize I am completely alone. It stopped being scary a while ago

>>15160
how much schizos are there on the zartey

>>15161
it's like der 'cord where everyone says they're schizo to stand out, but not a single one of them really are

>>15162
Evendoe I am serious and it actually happens to me
>being on 'cord enough to know the quirks of the "people" who live there

>>15163
this schizo larping is so fucking repetitive in imageboards it'd be nice if they atleast do it differently like idk, make an operating system completely from the ground up. point is, if you're going to act schizo atleast have something to show for it

>>15165
I never said I was schizo, otherwise I would be completely in another dimension, and I am no Terry Davis, you clearly have been on imageboards too much and your perception of things has been distorted to the point where everything is a larp or everything is fake and done for attention

>>15166
i never assumed (you) to be schizo doe, don't know where you got that from. im just rambling about with how gay these so-called schizos are with how much i see way too many of them

>>15167
People :transheart: attention, that's why if you go to social medias you can find people DESPERATELY craving the attention they want by posting 1488 times a day, or just screaming into the digital void

>>15168
tsmt, enact total attentionwhore death NOW

I usually lurk but tonight I thought I would say goodnight to you all. I have an exam in the morning and I'm a little worried but it's not too bad, I know that God is with me so I will pass. Goodnight Zaryans.

>inb4 mutt hours

>>15193
goodnight zaryan you vvill pass

>>15197
JAAANNNIIIEEEESSSSS

>>15197
>45 minutes ago

Oh my god nigga nearly an hour

>>15200
tranny jannies are too busy banning people for bullshit

>>15197
LITERALLY AN HOUR OLD WHAT THE FUCKK

>>15197
It's not what I expected from eurohours!.. or it's still mutthours, idk actually...

what did i even do to deserve this...

Actually fuck the janitors

<my honest janny reaction to this 'p