Overboard

I wanna preface this by saying im here because this is too embarrassing to post on a more identifiable place and the sharty is no use, also im NOT a troon and NEVER will be one or anything close to it and I know for a fact im not gay.

Im a man but I don't really understand how to be one entirely, I grew up without a father figure and I was mentally ill in my tween/teen years and suicidal. I've always been very sensitive cuz of autism and im very physically weak my whole life, I was really insecure about this in high school and I was already depressed so I found myself latching onto media that had "Soft" male characters like deltarune and sanrio stuff and a variety of cute themed furry webcomics because I associated masculine men with ugly and mean things, and saw myself in characters like ralsei or the suicidal cat in this picture

I didn't want to fuck them I want that to be clear, the fantasy was being them and then maybe dating one of the girl characters from the comics/games I was fantasizing about. part of my suicidal tendencies was the fantasy of escaping the real world and then going to a afterlife where I basically become one of those characters,

its so bad it warped my perception of self where my inner monologue and self perception I always imagine a squeaky voiced sort of chibi/fursona version of myself whenever I think or picture myself doing something or during my cry sessions.

Im a adult now and I know this stuff is all bad and unhealthy especially since I have seen how troons are and have shifted into a more conservative mindset but no matter what I do I can't get out of this headspace

im so jealous of normal guys who grow up and do manly stuff and have girlfriends without ever having these weird fantasies because I genuinely don't know what to do, I know I need to be normal but my brain wants me to -ACK and get away from reality, wtf do I do to undo this, I feel like I got fucked up rng and should just -ack to try again at life as a normal guy.

Why do people genuinely use Discord? I tried to force myself to get used to that app and it's just really nothing burger ass app where all you can do is just chatting with a bunch of unconscious kids and sharing low-quality drawings. Like it's just really boring as hell.

I guess its identity is "concealed community where you can talk to people with same interest privately" but idk I'm maybe just too old for that shit. I can't be entertained by that app at all

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Server IP: ongezellig.aternos.me

Port:22056

Version: Latest recommended (ViaBack enabled — older versions also supported)

If you wanna turn on the server make an account on https://aternos.org/ and give me your name you'll then be able to turn on the server when on the site

Features:

Anti-Cheat (report if any plus jannies give me your 'craft name for OP)

player login system

Bedrock and Java crossplay support

console support (Xbox, PlayStation, Switch via Bedrock) (try joining on a ps3/360)

Android support (Bedrock mobile players)

piracy support (cracked account login)

random teleport spawn command

custom GUI menus

death chest on player death (for less lag and lag removal protection)

mob and player head drops

basic commands like /home, /spawn, /tpa

manage Bedrock player skins

fixes recipe issues for Bedrock

image display in item frames

inventory rollback after death or crash

set home teleport points

mine and place spawners with Silk Touch

teleport request system

change skins server-side

chop trees in one swing

/ride command to mount entities

anti-xray protection (automatic)

browser proximity chat

Pirate PC: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wiZutjS-u8E

Pirate Android: https://mcpedl.org/downloading/ (pick the latest non beta APK)

Console Tutorial: https://bedrocktogether.net/

No puedo expresar lo mucho que me gusta Mymy. Es tan... interesante. Es un personaje único y mi aprecio por ella me hace olvidarme de traducir esto al inglés pues no hay palabras en ese idioma que puedan expresar lo que siento.

Mymy es un faro en la oscuridad, una alegría en la tristeza, es la existencia en la nada. Me pone realmente triste el hecho de que Massa cancelara esta mina de oro, una decisión bastante cuestionable. Sinceramente nunca me había sentido tan identificado con un personaje antes de Mymy.